Thanks Facebook. 

Friday, February 26, 2016.It’s 1045 and already it’s been a big day. 

Facebook does this thing where it likes to remind of you memories that happened in your Facebook past. Today it reminded me that one year ago exactly we announced to the world that we were having twins.

When it first popped up I immediately felt sad; angry at Facebook for reminding me of something that has so much heartache attached to it. Then I made myself stop and remember that although the pregnancy was pretty awful and the birth was horrifically traumatic, and the 6 months after that were the hardest we have ever had to survive through, it was actually a really happy day. We had amazing dreams of a family of four, two little identical boys running around causing mischief. We were excited about the future, the unknown, wondering who these little people would be and how we would raise them in the world. 

We felt special that we had become part of that small percentage of people who are gifted with identical twins. Unique. 

I was already planning in my head, the nursery, the names, the fun that we would have. William was thinking about taking them tramping, showing them the beauty of the country that we live in. 

So I stopped and pulled myself out of the sadness and tried to focus on those happy feelings that we had. That although the photo brought me reminders of loss it also represents a huge exciting time in our lives. We started on the road to becoming parents. 

Today also happens to be our 6 year wedding anniversary. It is also the day that I leave my two boys for a weekend away to celebrate some of our best friends, as they get married. As so often happens in life it’s a mixture of a day, with happy and sad intertwined. 

But the sun is shining and I’m pretty sure I haven’t forgotten too many things that I need, and I’m going to have an uninterrupted afternoon of reading my book at the airport, so it’s time to focus on the good. 

That 6th year of marriage was the toughest of the tough, and we are still an EPIC team. Neither of us could have made it to today without the other, and I don’t think it’s made us stronger, but it’s made us realise that falling apart is okay, because you have each other to help you put the pieces back together again. As you all know, a puzzle is much easier with a second set of eyes. 

Happy Friday everyone. Here’s to twins, marriages, lists, reading and love. 



Author: rfclews

I'm just another mum trying to figure all of this out, with the added bonus of getting to start extra early, and well and truly on the back foot!

2 thoughts on “Thanks Facebook. ”

  1. You are one amazing lady. I love how you’ve turned this day into a day of positives and remembering that hope you both had. You definitely are an epic team, and Oliver is certainly learning love from the best.


    enjoy that book! (And the shower without the phantom baby cries!)

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